Weight gain after marriage

I believe every women is afraid to gain weight. I have always maintain 47-48kg till I get married. My weight was suddenly like stock market, shooting up to 51kg. Everytime I weight myself I wanted to cry. I am trying to loss weight as I cant fit into my jeans, it really upset me, am i eating too much? I dont really want to go weigh myself now. Everytime see the weigh still the same, i feel demoralized.

Everytime i see my fats, i feel so upset, knowing within short period i cant slim down. Why are my fats coming to me....haiyo....go away please!

I have been cutting down on the food i eat, if possible every monday to thursday night i will go home, eat my oatmeal for dinner, with a dish of veges or soup. Only friday, saturday and sunday i will eat abit more. But will try to control of the amount of food i ate. During lunch i will try to eat only sliced fish bee hoon soup, maybe every wednesday i will pamper myself during lunch, mon, tues, thu and fri sliced fish bee hoon soup only.

Recently i start my jogging routine again, which i have stopped for many many months. Just started last week, every tues and thurs, after dinner i rest 1/2 hr, than went downstair, to the park nearby, walk for 15 mins before i start to run. If i am not going out on mon night and wed night i dont have to ot, i will make it to 3 times a week. Hopefully i will see results.

Really envy some people, no matter how much they eat, they wont grow fat. I think i eat air and drink water only also will become fat. I know i cant go back to 45kg, as long as i can maintain at 47-48kg, i will be very happy. I realise as age gets older, its getting harder and harder to slim down. But i will try to do my best, my jeans is my motivation now, as long i can get into my jeans, that means i am successful. I must jia you.

My Application Status

After receiving an sms from my future neighbour Jiaqin, i quickly log in to HDB Website to check my flat status. Sad to see its still 4th quarter 2012. Ah Qin told me there are 3 blks status changed to 3rd quarter 2012. Today i went in to check again, still the same. I was hoping i could see something different, its really disappointing, to see other blocks status changed and mine not yet. What i can do is only wait and wait.

Looks like while waiting i could only hope i could get my keys by sept or maybe next week my blk status will change to 3rd quarter 2012? I want to get my keys asap, so that i could settle everything and move in to stay. Been waiting for so many years, at first on and off we would go down to punggol to have a look at the progress of our block. But my hubby says by next next week ours will change the status to 3rd quarter 2012.

This year start we havent really went down once to look. Think hubby feel nothing much to see as progress not that fast. Lucky our neighbours are all very on, been posting lastest photos of our blocks in facebook. Our block are alway the slowest.

While waiting, maybe we can do some shopping. Today i actually did some online shopping haha...without telling my hubby. Opps.... i bought some kitchen appliances, only 2 to 3 items, with Ah Qin...i believe she bought more than me hahaha. Dear Hubby, dont scold me hor heehee. :p

To change or not to change

I am beginning to wonder why there are always some issue that put us in a dilemma. There is no right or wrong answer, but some things, i cant help my hubby make a decision. Its up to him to decide, i cant decide for him. Ultimately he will be the one to go to a new place to work.

Recently, hubby's friend call him to tell him his work place got a vacancy, ask if he is interested. Its a out-door sales job, on medical equipment, that means he will need to run out-door to different places and sell those medical products, he will require to hit target. Pay wise of cause is much higher than his current job, there will also be allowance plus commission. Problem is he need to convert his car as his car is a weekend car, if he wants to convert, need to top up at least $10K, it is not a small amount. And being in comfort zone for so long, at least at his current job, he dont have to worry. Every month fix pay.

Hubby's consent is what IF he did not hit target, will they just sack him? Our flat is coming soon, what if he suddenly kena sacked, than our flat how? Can we survive without part of his income for a few months? To convert his car also need alot of $$. And currently he still taking up a course sponsored by his current company, this course only end mid july. If he resign, does he need to pay penalty? 1 more reason is that he will be getting his bonus end April. If resign, will he still be able to get his bonus?

On the other side he feel he could do it, he like running outside, doing sales is ok for him. He wanted very much to change. He need a change, that's why he keep thinking and thinking. He worries alot. To me i see a opportunity, i wanted very much to support him, ask him to go ahead. But i have my own dilemma, if because of me, he decide to change, and if the job not successful, will he blame me? Its a totally new environment, different from what he is doing now. Will he become moody again?

If he succeed in this job, our income will be much better than now for sure, is alot better. I also dont know what to do. For me, i definitely will not consider, because i never like to go into sales line, i cant and dont have the courage to do sales talk. Hubby can, he is not afraid to meet new people and talk, thick-skinned. In the end, i do not have an answer, ask him change or stay put? I cant come up with a decision. I also dont wish i would be his reason to change or not to change, i know he would put me in consideration too, he has a family to take care of, soon flat coming, will it affect the HLE. He has to make a decision by himself, no matter what decision he make, i will support him all the way. Success or not, i will be by his side.

Its easy for me to change a job, as i wanted very much to change, i too have my own worries, what if 3 mths probation they dont confirm me? I will be out of job. I am doing my best, now i am not so afraid, people here are nice too, my senior was god to me too. This step out wasnt easy in the 1st place, i never know i have to courage to take a change.

Sorry dearest hubby, i cant make a decision for you. You have to decide yourself, although i wish i can help you by saying go or stay. If i do so, this will become my choice, not your choice. Its like a gamble, success or not, i dont know. But i will always be by your side. Love you always.

Shopping time...

Over the weekends, again we went to see one id, this will be the last id we see, so far we still waiting for quotation from 1 id and this id we just went to, we would choose either 1.

Later on we went to do some shopping, spended SOME $$$ haha. I bought a pot for cooking herbal soup, cutlery set. Small items can actually buy first, dont wish t wait till last min than buy. I even buy a cutting board, Ah Pooh bath towel and face towel.

I do kind of enjoy shopping, i only manage to buy afew items only. Should have bought more..opps..

Its look like only afew items, we spend almost $80 on these few items. I now start to think, what can i buy next? Oven? Yes i want to buy oven for my new home. I am very excited, its my own home, but now i am still waiting for key collection. I hope by this yr Aug i could get keys. Been waiting till i going to loss my patience but still, have to wait.

Recently we have been looking at ceiling fans too, thinking of which brand to take. We will be buying Fanco ceiling fan for our living room. And a stand fan to put in our room. Been looking at the price, i will not buy a too expensive one. A normal and good one will do. Our PR(Punggol Residences) neighbours now trying to see how many want to get the same ceiling fan, we are hoping to get bulk purchase at a cheaper price.

We are really lucky to have so many good neighbours, our PR will be a different place to live in. Only that our notti's family will be in Aus, but we will always remember them. Hope they will come back often so we can have our PR full attendance gathering!

I "LOVE" SingaPORE

I love Singapore because It is a top country, everything is Number 1!!! Transport number 1, MRT BREAK DOWN record number 1. How many times have they break down? In 6 mths time, break down how many times? Tell me lal! I love singapore cause they only know how to say SORRY. Everytime the same WORD. Only say no action...SORRY SORRY SORRY... Please lal, pay those people who are late for work because of YOU!

I love Singapore because the EXPRESSWAY alway jam, i recently change the name "Expressway" to "Slow-way", but someone choose "Jam-way", i think JAM WAY the best, because no matter what time, rain or no rain, its forever jam. Whenever i reach jam-way i become very happy, our road here are so FANTASTIC. Rain will jam, accident will also jam. Every single day jam. JAM JAM JAM, such a wonderful country.....everywhere any road also can jam, no one can win us in jaming the road...

I love Singapore cause our singapore drivers to me are all champions! They can drive at the speed of 20!!! Fantastic! No wonder JAM-WAY will jam. No rain also drive at speed of 20, rain more wonderful, drive at the speed of 10, so clever! We dont need good cars here, cause no matter how good the car is, reach jam way you will cry. No no wont cry is laugh till you want to die. In singapore no matter you go by MRT or BUS, nothing is safe, mrt will break down, bus will jam in Jam Way. Drive also same. Singapore is such a wonderful place to live in, everyday your blood pressure will circulate. I havent add in the waiting time for a bus to come...up to 1/2 for me but i heard before people waiting for 1hr for a bus to come.

I love Singapore because most of the time i feel i am in another country. When i reach Orchard, i thought i am in Philippines, when i reach Chinatown, i thought i am in China, when i reach Little India, i thought i am in India, when i was in mrt or bus, i thought i am a foreigner, as you see i see more than 1/2 of the people in the mrt/bus are either china/philippinos/bangladesh... only 30% are SINGAPOREANS. Such a wonderful place to live in.

I love Singapore because i feel very stress. Want to buy a flat must pay so much, such high living standard really will kill us, slowly sucking our blood till we left bones. Earn such little pay and fight for jobs with FTS! There are many jobs out there but companies would rather emply FTS ya....so what are we?

I love Singapore because i dont feel like a 1st class citizens! I feel we are ( Singapore born) 3rd class citizens, we need to fight for a place in school with FTS, we need to fight for jobs with FTS, we need to fight for a space in mrt/bus with FTS...We need to fight for a place to stay with FTS too...SHIT! What else, go toilet also must fight? Give birth need to fight for a place anot?

I love Singapore because my cpf $$$$ forever not mine, even if i can retire i cant get all the $$$ out! No no, no chance to retire, in this place you can never retire. Cant affort to retire, unless go to other countries, give up citizenship. (Considering)

I love singapore because they let many so called FTS to study for free here and call us "DOGS". And he can continue stay and call us dogs ya....such a wonderful place to live in. What will they call us next? Woof Woof....

Tell me! Do you think FTS will stay in Singapore forever? Come on lal, you need FTS, yes i agree, BUT we don't need so many of them. Do we? And they say they need MORE FTS here! Sooner or later they will go back to their OWN Countries to buy land build house, what about us? We have nothing, really nothing. Are they fair to us? They just let us die here. Who is going to take care of us? I wonder who! In Singapore its best to die early, the longer you live, the longer you suffer.

See how Wonderful Singapore is, such a wonderful place to live in. Everyday have to worry about $$$, worry if can affort to have babies anot, worry about if i will be late anot because of mrt/bus, worry if i will lost my job to FT anot, worry if my kids in futher will have a place in school anot, worry when they grow up cant get into Singapore University and have to send them overseas, if i need to do that i will tell them never to come back to Singapore and bring us along. Worry if everything will increase again anot, worry if fall sick no $$ to see doctor. (I dont think i can get a surgery at $8) Worry...blah blah blah

I love Singapore....so very much! Dont you too love your super nice country?

My Friend's naughty son

Recently I have received calls from Jolyne, whining about her son’s behaviour. Her son had been coming up with a lot of pattern. Jolyne was so angry and upset till she almost break down, tearing up his homework, chasing him out of the house etc… All this does not have any impact on him at all, he will just cry awhile and back to his same behaviour again. This routine continues again n again, no matter what method you use, its useless to him.

Actually till now I don’t know what overcome him, knowing this child since he was in K1, Jolyne was very strict with him, from homework to his behaviour, things he need to do everything, guiding him to be independent etc… He has been ok, of cause most of the times he is up to some mischief, but still able to guide him to the right track. After he went to Primary school, things started to change, not better...but to the worst side.

Pri 1 and 2 was still ok, of cause teachers often complain him, talk alot lal, not listening lal blah blah blah... since he went to Pri 3 and this year Pri 4, his attitude become worst. Playing truant, caught red handed by Jolyne but refuse to admit, telling lies. No interest in doing his homework, everyday just thinking of playing. His exams results was bad, this year CA 1 i think he fail sll the subjects. Jolyne so worry he will goes to foundation.

Giving him so many tutions, no improvement. He just dont show any interest at all, he just anyhow do his work, try to finish it quickly so that he can play. Try talking nicely to him, beat him, scold him all useless. Jolyne dont know what to do with him anymore. Even if he is in the wrong, he will just argue back. I cant provide any solutions for her.

I start thinking, is it because from small, he was not in a good enviroment, causing him to become so rebellious. From what i know, Jolyne and her hubby are alway quarrelling, 1 week can quarrel up to 3 times. I alway tell her not to quarrel infront of him, how would he feel? Her hubby will start throwing things, arguing, pushing all faults to Jolyne. I just feel this isnt right, the child sees and learn all the bad things from parents. Also in school, what type of friends does he have, you cant control all the friends he made.

Of cause i have friend's kid that are well behaved, there are times when they are naughty. From what i know my this friend was the one to scold and beat while her husband will later on talk to the kid, telling him why mummy beat him. He will actually goes and apologise to mummy. Teaching them what is right or wrong is important, to start as early as possible. While 1 party is teaching, the other party best not to interference, the other party have to talk to the child, why and how. Anyway it also depends on the child, his attitude, his mentality...

I wonder when i have my own kids, what type of enviroment can i give them? How to guide them to be a better person? Its not easy, not only have to guide them on their behaviour, on their school work, worries about the friends they mix with. Usually we are all working, unable to spend so much time with them. We cant really see what they are doing while we are working. We can only do our best.

Raining wednesday

It’s a cold Wednesday morning, waking up at 5:40am only to realise its raining outside. Such a cool weather to sleep and rot in bed, unwilling I wake up, bath and get ready for work. In my mind I kept thinking how nice it would be if I could continue my sleep… dreaming away. Back to reality, better leave the house early in case it will jam.

Singapore is a funny country, if its rains, outside sure jam. Its not normal jam, its very jam till you want to cry, everyone drives very slowly…so so slowly till you want to scream and definitely there will be accident somewhere out there without fail. 100% comfirm haha. No rain also will have accident, rain more accident. Accident + slow= Jam till you die.

When i reaches office, its still raining fiercely outside. The air-con was cold, drank a cup of warm coffee and start my day after enjoying my warm coffee. Looking on the bright side, its already wednesday, 2 more working days and i can enjoy myself on Friday 6pm onwards. I guess those that have the same workng days as me will have the same mentality as me. Looking forward, thinking now how you going to spend your sat and sun.

Havent really discuss with hubby where to go for dinner on friday night, how we are going to spend our sat and sun. I believe he hates thursday (He needs to go study at night). But he can think of friday, weekend coming soon, that may cheer him up. Come on man! Cheer up! Weekend coming soon! Sat morning wake up at 9 plus am, go down for breakfast, go home cook lunch, than go see id with future neighbours. Sun...pending...

Back to wednesday, i hope it wont rain for the whole day. Last night it rains, i was unable to go jogging, tonight i need to ot, tomorrow night i want to go jogging again, so i hope it wont rain. Office so cold now, making me feel so sleepy, rain rain go away.....goooo away pls.....