My poor hubby

My poor hubby keep complaining he feels very stressed, just started school for the 3rd week, this 2 subject was difficult for him. Some which he could not really understand. I told him to go earlier for class and ask his lecturer to guide him on those which he does not understand. I know its wasn’t easy as he is not young anymore, having stopped school for so long. Suddenly need to study again, the mind needs sometime to be active again.

In the 1st place i also encourage him to study, i wonder am i the cause he will go study, causing him to feel stress, moody. Should give HIM A BIG KISS HAHA...

Sometimes he will feel moody, there wasnt much I could do, I cant help him in his homework, especially maths! I guess many people don’t like maths, I am very poor in maths, its either just pass or fail. So i could not encourage him. I began to wonder if I am given a chance to study, will i? Every course sure got math, I am damm weak in maths, that’s what hold me back from studying, I am afraid of maths!

Recently my friend told me she wanted to take up a course in business administration, ask if I want to go with her. I have been thinking for some time, actually I wanted very much to go. But, I just change a job, still trying to cope with it. My flat coming soon, maybe by sep 2012, I will be busy doing reno buying furnitures… Once settle down in new flat, will start to try for a baby. So will I be able to cope all these while I need to study part time? Till now I don’t have an answer. I don’t have the confident I can cope with everything, with my hubby studying till mid july, I need to comfort my darling when he feels down. It will be dad if both party feels down and moody, how to encourage when both feels sad, stress, moody? And I currently still doing my best to settle down in my new job, I don’t have the mood to do other things now.

So I can only put on hold and see how it goes. When I first start my job, I have been very scared and down,my hubby worries so much about me, telling me to jia you, if cant don’t force myself. Slowly everything getting better, day by day I become braver. Sometimes in office I don’t really know what to do, or I have nothing to do. I have to try find things do to pass my time. Now I know how to entertain myself and try to look busy haha. 3 months can be long but will be over very soon, once probation over everything will be ok, I believe it will not be a big problem.

So , my hubby have to jia you le, study hard, don’t understand ask till understand, JIA YOU!!! Don’t be moody le, look forward, it will be over sooooooon………look forward! Lao Gong! Jia You!!! Give you a big big kiss! The most i let you play hide n seek with Ah Poohssss.....

Its has been 2 weeks since i change a new job

Time really pass by very fast, my 2nd Sat and Sun off day was very busy. Friday night went to Da Bo Gong to pray than to old airport road hawker for dinner. We ate sinful food, chicken chop and pork chop, hubby even went to queue up to buy the very famous "Lao Ban dou hua", saying he wanted to try if its worth to queue so long.

After tasting it, i can only say its not bad but its not worth my time to queue so long to eat it. Its not that fantasist, just ok lol. I rather eat the normal 60 cents dou hua haha. Its cheap and i do not need to queue. Later on we meet up with hubby's friend to chit chat, so i slept quite late on friday night.

I woke up early on sat as i have a facial appointment at 10:45am, hubby drive me to Toa Payoh, we had breakfast and then i went for my facial, which i fall asleep again haha. Noon time we went to 3 id to ask for quotation. 1st one not bad and the price was the cheapest, the quotation he gave was hand written which i dont like. Why? Because his hand writing was horrible. Cant actually read what he was writing, i believe there are many hidden cost. The 2nd one really cannot make it haha.

The 3rd one we went to was good, we spend 2hrs plus in there. He is very detailed, now we waiting for his quote. Of all the id we went to we feel he is the best. Hopefully his price wont scare us, no matter how its below 18K. Sunday we went in to jb, watch movie ate breakfast and came out. We meeting 1 of our future neighbours and bring them over to the 3rd id which we like. They too, like him very much, also hopeing his price is ok. hahaha.... My hubby really good at trying his best to bargain haha....that i leave it to him as he alway say his mind turn faster than me. So he do the talking lol.

They spend 3hr plus there haha....than head for dinner and went home. Since Monday have to work, its better to rest early and have enough energy for monday! But!!! As usual, my hubby without fail will hide my POOH BEARS....very angry...alway paly hide n seek with me! Really feel like beating him up. He still say its entertaining me! Ok lol he win lol.

My sat and sun didnt have a chance to sleep till late late, hope this coming weekend can sleep later. Now i patiently wait for the 1st public holiday to arrive, that will be Good Friday...long weekend coming...

Singapore Transport

Singapore transports is so terrible. From MRT to buses... When you need to board mrt to work, you need to push and squeeze in order to board the mrt. Now, if you want to board a bus to work, you also need to push and squeeze and prevent people from cutting your queue.

This is what i am facing everyday, no matter which transport you take. Outcome will only be worst and not better. Our govenment somemore dare to encourage us not to drive to work but use our Singapore Public Transport. Boarding the MRT/Buses is a big issue now, but so far no one in Singapore can solve this issue.

Even with the frequency number of buses coming, its useless, i saw this particular bus 969 going towards Tampines from Woodlands Interchange. Every single bus that come was very packed, when it reaches Yishun, the people are unable to board, maybe awhile manage to squeeze in. When i look inside the bus, i actually wonder how many of them are singaporeans.

The bus i going to board is not 969 is 965 going to Sengkang. Till now i cant really catch the bus arriving timing, sometimes it will be late, sometimes early. Only the going back timing, too slow, think need to wait 15 mins for a bus, which during that timing is peak hours. Look at the schedule between 5pm to 7pm, frequency of the bus is 10 mins, i can wait up to 15 mins, ua same excuss, traffice jam, they cant control traffic lal...blah blah blah. Ya you can complain, its useless. They never force you to board their transport! So slowly wait lolx, can wait up tp 30 mins.

Why will traffic jam? Because there are too many cars in singapore. May i know how many of them are SINGAPOREANS??? Maybe out of 10 cars, 4 are singaporeans. In a bus how many are singaporeans? Out of 50 only 15 are singaporeans...pathetic. And still want to welcome more FT to come in here! Come on lal, already damm pack...who will think of us? We are more like 3rd class citizens! I waiting to see soon all Singaporeans move out of singapore and SINGAPORE will ahve FT only. Sooner or later....

My weak points

How should i start my topic? Why do i say i feel i am like a open book? Recently i realize people can read me easily. One of my senior told me:" You must have confident in yourself, you are new here, everyone will guide you, dont be afraid, have more confident. You can do it one why no confident at all? "

What she said was true, i really do not have the confident in myself, can i say i look down on myself? I am not clever, do things alway make careless mistake. Thats how i see myself. When i say careless mistake, till now still doing the same thing. When i look at the stationary list i submitted, i make a mistake in the pricing and i amended it. I start thinking back, my ex manager Joan omce said to me: " Maggie ar...if the monthly timesheet you submit got no mistake, i mean not a single mistake, i buy magnum gold give you eat. But hor...i got no chance to buy, cause you every month sumit one sure got mistake." :(

Actually, i did check, i double check, i don't really understand why still got mistake. Recently Joan sms me asking if my ear itchy anot, she keep saying my name when she in office. She told me about the bounce cheque issue, as it was a post dated cheque, the customer was fined as i bank in earlier. I was damm surprised, i told her i check before i really went to the bank to bank in. I don't know what to say, i did double check, see date, amount payee name to make sure no mistake before banking them in. Even double check, still got mistake. I ask my part time admin to check again too, still wrong...Why? Whats wrong with me?

Tomorrow i need to do reports file in for all the directors, hope there wont be any mistake. Must triple check....pray.... Even though my colleague will stay back to help me check, i still must triple check. Jia you lol!!!!

How i spend my 1st sat and sun

At last, its the day i have been waiting for for the past 5 days. To off on sat and sun. I feel happy when friday came, 1st time i have this feelin( which people are alway saying TGIF). I can feel that too hahaha. My darling hubby came to fetch me with a smile on his face. I know he is happy too, at last his wife can off on the same day as him. We dont need to go home so early asi i DONT NEED to work on sat and sun. Notknowing how to spend my friday night(1st timer), we decide to go east coast park, sitting in Carl Junior eating burgar. I even call my darling(my darling is a girl hor, staying same blk as me but on 10th story) for kopi session.

We had our kopi session at 12:10am, downstairs coffeeshop, enjoying our hot milo and tea, my hubby feels HUNGRY again, at prata and satay. Till almost 2am than we went home. I am so tired i slept till 11 plus am the next day. Didnt manage to go downstairs for breakfast. Si i decide i will go breakfast on sunday morning.

We had our lunch at home and went out to watch movie with hubby's cousins, after that we even went to look for id, to look around their price and what type of ideas they are able to provide us with. My hubby do the most talking. ( I dont really know much about reno or i can say i am ignorance) Later we went to hubby's friend house to watch liverpool match. Its really a waste of time, since liverpool cant win and he knows it! Why still want to watch leh? Watch till so bek chek....%%&$...still want to watch wor...why wor????

I think i better stop talking about liverpool, wait kena beaten up...heee. Right after the match we went home. I decide to sleep, so that i can wake up earlier on sunday morning to accompany my hubby for breakfast. I woke up at 930am, bath and head downstairs coffeeshop for breakfast wjth my darling hubby. I had a toast set for breakfast while hubby ate fried bee hoon. After that, we went to walk around and head home as i want to cook lunch for hubby.

What am i going to cook??? Well, I decide to try sweet n sour pork, i know hubby like this dish. I cooked a total of 2 dish. Soup was cooked by my mum.

1st dish: Sweet n sour pork. Looks yummy right? Sure its yummy, cause i cook one wahahahha. Its not a difficult dish to cook. Steps are rather easy.

2nd dish: Fry veges, simple dish, just fry some mixed veges, can be very nice too. We can slowly enjoy our lunch.

This is actually the life i have been wanting, sat and sun off same with my hubby. During our off day, we can plan either to go out or rot at home TOGETHER. It seems we have more time for ourselves. We can wake up together, bath than slowly walk downstairs hand in hand for breakfast. Taking our own sweet time, slowly eat.

I can buy some meat n veges home to prepare lunch, after lunch its either we go out or take a nap and meet friends at night for dinner. Since Monday both of us have to work, we wont be going out till too late, got to come back early to rest, ready for monday to go for work.

Although my hubby didnt say anytihng, i know deep in his heart, he is very happy. I feel happy too and will learn to adapt to new changes. Especially in my new job, i will try to be braver and have more confidence in myself which i know currently i dont have it. I will do my best.

My 4th day in new company

Its been 4 days since i left my old company. Leaving behind some good colleagues which i will alway miss. During my last working day with them, they even organise a small farewell party for me. Almost succeed in making me cry haha.

Anyway since i made a decidion, there will be no turning back, can only move forward. I hope all of them will stay pretty and healthy. Hopefully they will never forget me hahaha.... should meet up sometime. I also miss my manager, how i wish my lady boss is like my old manager haha. I think hard to find a manager as patient as her. I began to miss her nagging. My senior was damm patient with me too. Lucky me... if not i sure jialat.

Back to my 4th day story in my new office.

I was given a table of my own, only took a photo of 1 side. My table was rather big, with 3 drawers and 1 cupboard, allows me to put many many things haha...sooner or later my table wont be so clean. It will be a messy table hahaha... and also i have a PC of my own, the screen musch bigger than my old company one hahaha...

My new company colleagues are nice and friendly, they know my senior going on leave for 8 days, they told me not to worry, anything not sure can ask them. One of them even say she will stay back with me on next wed to help me finish the report.

I feek relieved, yesterday my senior and i ot till 10pm (got ot pay), every wed we need to do reports for all the directors, its my 1st time doing, i feel so scare, afraid i will make mistake. Taking down alot of notes, anyway not only 2 of us, there are around 10 people who stay back and we order KFC for dinner wahahaha...having a small party.

After that we continue doing our report. Next wed i going to do it on my own, with the notes i have wrote down and have done only once, i hope i wont make any mistake. While she is away, i hope no one come ask me questions, i really dont know how to answer or what to do, being a 4 day old staff, how much will she know?

I can only countdown and look forward till the day my senior come back work. And hope i can pass the 3 mth probation. Hopefully no one can ask me anything...please.....

2nd day of work

So far so good, i learn alot of things today, write down many notes. I even rewrite it to make it look neat.

I feel much better today, although still feeling afraid, but much better than yesterday. There are still many things which i need to learn and it takes time, and only practice makes perfect. I can writea whole book of notes, without hands on and pratice, i will never be able to remember them.

Actually i enjoy doing all these paper work, just do my things no need to serve customers, no need to talk so much haha. But today when i call DHL cause i need to send a document overseas, while calling, my heart beat very fast, i so scare my heart want to come out haha...Its isnt that difficult, only that i stressing myself...the "What if" again lolx...

My hubby ask me again the same question, i can only ans him not happy nor sad. Cause i dont feel very happy and i dont feel working here is sad. If i say i very happy that will be a lie cause can see from my face. But i am not sad, only scare. Sad and scare are totally different issue. My hubby dont understand at all. He keep saying scare means sad...faint. Well, maybe only till i can do things on my own than i wont feel scare and may feel happier. And my cute hubby today sms me a sweet sms asking me to jia you and be happy. I feel so warm in my heart. I know hes trying to encourage me, dont want to see me unhappy. I will try.

Lucky for me i have a good colleague, guiding me all the way. Very patience with me. I often remind myself to be very careful. As the most scary part is office polities. Just get my things done, dont talk too much. You dont know who is good and who is bad, everyone wear a mask. I only come to work and get my pay, thats all. I dont wish to get too close to them, as i dont wish later on they got any planning to go out play...sing K lal, no way, to me after work is go home eat and rest, next day still have to work.

So its best not to be too close, only 2 to 3 close one is enough. Lunch hour can eat together, than call hubby or my god sister to chat awhile. after work in bus can chat with hubby too. Just hope everything goes well.