My 4th day in new company

Its been 4 days since i left my old company. Leaving behind some good colleagues which i will alway miss. During my last working day with them, they even organise a small farewell party for me. Almost succeed in making me cry haha.

Anyway since i made a decidion, there will be no turning back, can only move forward. I hope all of them will stay pretty and healthy. Hopefully they will never forget me hahaha.... should meet up sometime. I also miss my manager, how i wish my lady boss is like my old manager haha. I think hard to find a manager as patient as her. I began to miss her nagging. My senior was damm patient with me too. Lucky me... if not i sure jialat.

Back to my 4th day story in my new office.

I was given a table of my own, only took a photo of 1 side. My table was rather big, with 3 drawers and 1 cupboard, allows me to put many many things haha...sooner or later my table wont be so clean. It will be a messy table hahaha... and also i have a PC of my own, the screen musch bigger than my old company one hahaha...

My new company colleagues are nice and friendly, they know my senior going on leave for 8 days, they told me not to worry, anything not sure can ask them. One of them even say she will stay back with me on next wed to help me finish the report.

I feek relieved, yesterday my senior and i ot till 10pm (got ot pay), every wed we need to do reports for all the directors, its my 1st time doing, i feel so scare, afraid i will make mistake. Taking down alot of notes, anyway not only 2 of us, there are around 10 people who stay back and we order KFC for dinner wahahaha...having a small party.

After that we continue doing our report. Next wed i going to do it on my own, with the notes i have wrote down and have done only once, i hope i wont make any mistake. While she is away, i hope no one come ask me questions, i really dont know how to answer or what to do, being a 4 day old staff, how much will she know?

I can only countdown and look forward till the day my senior come back work. And hope i can pass the 3 mth probation. Hopefully no one can ask me anything...please.....

2nd day of work

So far so good, i learn alot of things today, write down many notes. I even rewrite it to make it look neat.

I feel much better today, although still feeling afraid, but much better than yesterday. There are still many things which i need to learn and it takes time, and only practice makes perfect. I can writea whole book of notes, without hands on and pratice, i will never be able to remember them.

Actually i enjoy doing all these paper work, just do my things no need to serve customers, no need to talk so much haha. But today when i call DHL cause i need to send a document overseas, while calling, my heart beat very fast, i so scare my heart want to come out haha...Its isnt that difficult, only that i stressing myself...the "What if" again lolx...

My hubby ask me again the same question, i can only ans him not happy nor sad. Cause i dont feel very happy and i dont feel working here is sad. If i say i very happy that will be a lie cause can see from my face. But i am not sad, only scare. Sad and scare are totally different issue. My hubby dont understand at all. He keep saying scare means sad...faint. Well, maybe only till i can do things on my own than i wont feel scare and may feel happier. And my cute hubby today sms me a sweet sms asking me to jia you and be happy. I feel so warm in my heart. I know hes trying to encourage me, dont want to see me unhappy. I will try.

Lucky for me i have a good colleague, guiding me all the way. Very patience with me. I often remind myself to be very careful. As the most scary part is office polities. Just get my things done, dont talk too much. You dont know who is good and who is bad, everyone wear a mask. I only come to work and get my pay, thats all. I dont wish to get too close to them, as i dont wish later on they got any planning to go out play...sing K lal, no way, to me after work is go home eat and rest, next day still have to work.

So its best not to be too close, only 2 to 3 close one is enough. Lunch hour can eat together, than call hubby or my god sister to chat awhile. after work in bus can chat with hubby too. Just hope everything goes well.

1st day of work

Today's my 1st day of work. Feeling so stress and scare. Afraid will do things wrong. How do i feel, i can only say feel nothing. Not happy and not sad...only feel damm moody. Dont feel like talking at all. Just moody lolx, no feelings now.

Its really silly, i also dont know what am i afraid of, maybe because my partner going on leave from this friday till 13 march than come back. I feel so scare. How much can she teach me in 4 days before she goes on leave? Even i write down all the notes, doesnt means i can remember what to do. Who can i look for? Another colleague? She might not even be able to help me.

I decide i will try out, its either they happy with me or i fail the 3 mths probation. Lucky for me my partner was very nice to me, she even guide me step by step. What she taught me today i can understand. My boss looks fierce, making me feeling more scare. Other department, well they do their own things. Maybe there are too many people compare to my previous work place, causing me to be more nervous. I cant remember any1 of them haha...think i am to scare.

Jolyne told me to take 1 step at a time, its only my 1st day. previous place work for 7 yrs now suddenly change an environment, sure feel scare and not use to it. In comfort zone for too long. In 1 weeks time i will feel different. I hope it will be like what she says. Good luck lolx...