2nd day of work

So far so good, i learn alot of things today, write down many notes. I even rewrite it to make it look neat.

I feel much better today, although still feeling afraid, but much better than yesterday. There are still many things which i need to learn and it takes time, and only practice makes perfect. I can writea whole book of notes, without hands on and pratice, i will never be able to remember them.

Actually i enjoy doing all these paper work, just do my things no need to serve customers, no need to talk so much haha. But today when i call DHL cause i need to send a document overseas, while calling, my heart beat very fast, i so scare my heart want to come out haha...Its isnt that difficult, only that i stressing myself...the "What if" again lolx...

My hubby ask me again the same question, i can only ans him not happy nor sad. Cause i dont feel very happy and i dont feel working here is sad. If i say i very happy that will be a lie cause can see from my face. But i am not sad, only scare. Sad and scare are totally different issue. My hubby dont understand at all. He keep saying scare means sad...faint. Well, maybe only till i can do things on my own than i wont feel scare and may feel happier. And my cute hubby today sms me a sweet sms asking me to jia you and be happy. I feel so warm in my heart. I know hes trying to encourage me, dont want to see me unhappy. I will try.

Lucky for me i have a good colleague, guiding me all the way. Very patience with me. I often remind myself to be very careful. As the most scary part is office polities. Just get my things done, dont talk too much. You dont know who is good and who is bad, everyone wear a mask. I only come to work and get my pay, thats all. I dont wish to get too close to them, as i dont wish later on they got any planning to go out play...sing K lal, no way, to me after work is go home eat and rest, next day still have to work.

So its best not to be too close, only 2 to 3 close one is enough. Lunch hour can eat together, than call hubby or my god sister to chat awhile. after work in bus can chat with hubby too. Just hope everything goes well.