Weight gain after marriage

I believe every women is afraid to gain weight. I have always maintain 47-48kg till I get married. My weight was suddenly like stock market, shooting up to 51kg. Everytime I weight myself I wanted to cry. I am trying to loss weight as I cant fit into my jeans, it really upset me, am i eating too much? I dont really want to go weigh myself now. Everytime see the weigh still the same, i feel demoralized.

Everytime i see my fats, i feel so upset, knowing within short period i cant slim down. Why are my fats coming to me....haiyo....go away please!

I have been cutting down on the food i eat, if possible every monday to thursday night i will go home, eat my oatmeal for dinner, with a dish of veges or soup. Only friday, saturday and sunday i will eat abit more. But will try to control of the amount of food i ate. During lunch i will try to eat only sliced fish bee hoon soup, maybe every wednesday i will pamper myself during lunch, mon, tues, thu and fri sliced fish bee hoon soup only.

Recently i start my jogging routine again, which i have stopped for many many months. Just started last week, every tues and thurs, after dinner i rest 1/2 hr, than went downstair, to the park nearby, walk for 15 mins before i start to run. If i am not going out on mon night and wed night i dont have to ot, i will make it to 3 times a week. Hopefully i will see results.

Really envy some people, no matter how much they eat, they wont grow fat. I think i eat air and drink water only also will become fat. I know i cant go back to 45kg, as long as i can maintain at 47-48kg, i will be very happy. I realise as age gets older, its getting harder and harder to slim down. But i will try to do my best, my jeans is my motivation now, as long i can get into my jeans, that means i am successful. I must jia you.

My Application Status

After receiving an sms from my future neighbour Jiaqin, i quickly log in to HDB Website to check my flat status. Sad to see its still 4th quarter 2012. Ah Qin told me there are 3 blks status changed to 3rd quarter 2012. Today i went in to check again, still the same. I was hoping i could see something different, its really disappointing, to see other blocks status changed and mine not yet. What i can do is only wait and wait.

Looks like while waiting i could only hope i could get my keys by sept or maybe next week my blk status will change to 3rd quarter 2012? I want to get my keys asap, so that i could settle everything and move in to stay. Been waiting for so many years, at first on and off we would go down to punggol to have a look at the progress of our block. But my hubby says by next next week ours will change the status to 3rd quarter 2012.

This year start we havent really went down once to look. Think hubby feel nothing much to see as progress not that fast. Lucky our neighbours are all very on, been posting lastest photos of our blocks in facebook. Our block are alway the slowest.

While waiting, maybe we can do some shopping. Today i actually did some online shopping haha...without telling my hubby. Opps.... i bought some kitchen appliances, only 2 to 3 items, with Ah Qin...i believe she bought more than me hahaha. Dear Hubby, dont scold me hor heehee. :p

To change or not to change

I am beginning to wonder why there are always some issue that put us in a dilemma. There is no right or wrong answer, but some things, i cant help my hubby make a decision. Its up to him to decide, i cant decide for him. Ultimately he will be the one to go to a new place to work.

Recently, hubby's friend call him to tell him his work place got a vacancy, ask if he is interested. Its a out-door sales job, on medical equipment, that means he will need to run out-door to different places and sell those medical products, he will require to hit target. Pay wise of cause is much higher than his current job, there will also be allowance plus commission. Problem is he need to convert his car as his car is a weekend car, if he wants to convert, need to top up at least $10K, it is not a small amount. And being in comfort zone for so long, at least at his current job, he dont have to worry. Every month fix pay.

Hubby's consent is what IF he did not hit target, will they just sack him? Our flat is coming soon, what if he suddenly kena sacked, than our flat how? Can we survive without part of his income for a few months? To convert his car also need alot of $$. And currently he still taking up a course sponsored by his current company, this course only end mid july. If he resign, does he need to pay penalty? 1 more reason is that he will be getting his bonus end April. If resign, will he still be able to get his bonus?

On the other side he feel he could do it, he like running outside, doing sales is ok for him. He wanted very much to change. He need a change, that's why he keep thinking and thinking. He worries alot. To me i see a opportunity, i wanted very much to support him, ask him to go ahead. But i have my own dilemma, if because of me, he decide to change, and if the job not successful, will he blame me? Its a totally new environment, different from what he is doing now. Will he become moody again?

If he succeed in this job, our income will be much better than now for sure, is alot better. I also dont know what to do. For me, i definitely will not consider, because i never like to go into sales line, i cant and dont have the courage to do sales talk. Hubby can, he is not afraid to meet new people and talk, thick-skinned. In the end, i do not have an answer, ask him change or stay put? I cant come up with a decision. I also dont wish i would be his reason to change or not to change, i know he would put me in consideration too, he has a family to take care of, soon flat coming, will it affect the HLE. He has to make a decision by himself, no matter what decision he make, i will support him all the way. Success or not, i will be by his side.

Its easy for me to change a job, as i wanted very much to change, i too have my own worries, what if 3 mths probation they dont confirm me? I will be out of job. I am doing my best, now i am not so afraid, people here are nice too, my senior was god to me too. This step out wasnt easy in the 1st place, i never know i have to courage to take a change.

Sorry dearest hubby, i cant make a decision for you. You have to decide yourself, although i wish i can help you by saying go or stay. If i do so, this will become my choice, not your choice. Its like a gamble, success or not, i dont know. But i will always be by your side. Love you always.

Shopping time...

Over the weekends, again we went to see one id, this will be the last id we see, so far we still waiting for quotation from 1 id and this id we just went to, we would choose either 1.

Later on we went to do some shopping, spended SOME $$$ haha. I bought a pot for cooking herbal soup, cutlery set. Small items can actually buy first, dont wish t wait till last min than buy. I even buy a cutting board, Ah Pooh bath towel and face towel.

I do kind of enjoy shopping, i only manage to buy afew items only. Should have bought more..opps..

Its look like only afew items, we spend almost $80 on these few items. I now start to think, what can i buy next? Oven? Yes i want to buy oven for my new home. I am very excited, its my own home, but now i am still waiting for key collection. I hope by this yr Aug i could get keys. Been waiting till i going to loss my patience but still, have to wait.

Recently we have been looking at ceiling fans too, thinking of which brand to take. We will be buying Fanco ceiling fan for our living room. And a stand fan to put in our room. Been looking at the price, i will not buy a too expensive one. A normal and good one will do. Our PR(Punggol Residences) neighbours now trying to see how many want to get the same ceiling fan, we are hoping to get bulk purchase at a cheaper price.

We are really lucky to have so many good neighbours, our PR will be a different place to live in. Only that our notti's family will be in Aus, but we will always remember them. Hope they will come back often so we can have our PR full attendance gathering!