My weak points

How should i start my topic? Why do i say i feel i am like a open book? Recently i realize people can read me easily. One of my senior told me:" You must have confident in yourself, you are new here, everyone will guide you, dont be afraid, have more confident. You can do it one why no confident at all? "

What she said was true, i really do not have the confident in myself, can i say i look down on myself? I am not clever, do things alway make careless mistake. Thats how i see myself. When i say careless mistake, till now still doing the same thing. When i look at the stationary list i submitted, i make a mistake in the pricing and i amended it. I start thinking back, my ex manager Joan omce said to me: " Maggie ar...if the monthly timesheet you submit got no mistake, i mean not a single mistake, i buy magnum gold give you eat. But hor...i got no chance to buy, cause you every month sumit one sure got mistake." :(

Actually, i did check, i double check, i don't really understand why still got mistake. Recently Joan sms me asking if my ear itchy anot, she keep saying my name when she in office. She told me about the bounce cheque issue, as it was a post dated cheque, the customer was fined as i bank in earlier. I was damm surprised, i told her i check before i really went to the bank to bank in. I don't know what to say, i did double check, see date, amount payee name to make sure no mistake before banking them in. Even double check, still got mistake. I ask my part time admin to check again too, still wrong...Why? Whats wrong with me?

Tomorrow i need to do reports file in for all the directors, hope there wont be any mistake. Must triple check....pray.... Even though my colleague will stay back to help me check, i still must triple check. Jia you lol!!!!