Unsettled Feelings

With a new job waiting for me now, why do i feel so insecure? What am i afraid of? Everyone is happy for me. Everyone said:" Good for you, congratulations!"

Leaving my comfort zone was not easy, being in this company for 7 years plus. Theres nothing for me to fear. So why the sudden change? I want a normal 5 working days job. Mon to Fri, sat sun off. I dont want to work shift hours anymore. I want to really go into admin line if possible, i dont want to be in customer service anymore. I prefer to face computer than people! I dont need to change light bulb anymore, i dont need to hear teachers saying:" Maggie, the clock is slow! Maggie the copier spoil! Maggie! Printer no more ink. Maggie paper jam how? Maggie PC spoil cannot print Maggie light spoil..Maggie chair spoil...Maggie how to fax....Maggie i dont know how to print A3 size...Maggie spoil liao....MAGGIE!!!!!!!!"

I told myself, ok , send resume, try out, if by Apr i am unable to get a job, i will stay put in my current job. Send out at least 20 resume, some call back, mostly no news, went to 3 interview, its wasnt easy without a good experience in admin line. Despite of my not so good english(which an interviewer told me before), i manage to get a job as Admin Asst! I pass the interview! So?

I should be damm happy, thats what i want! Mon to fri, sat sun off same as my hubby, more time to be with him. I get into admin asst line, thats what i alway want to be! Why do i feel so scare? Scare of what! I also dont know. Afraid my new colleagues dont like me, afraid i dont pass the 3 mths probation, afraid my new manager dont like me, afraid no one to teach me blah blah blah.... My biggest problem is that i am afraid of failure. What if i am being terminated? I will become jobless! Faint! I am being so negative.

I am going to miss my manager...under her for 7 yrs. She has been good to me, will i be able to find such a good manager?

Come on lal...think so much for what, decision made so? Go ahead, already tender, 27 Feb start work liao, so just go ahead, dont be afraid, think too much also useless. Just do your best and enjoy your sat sun off!!! Its not easy to get into the line that interest you, go try out and do your best! Be positive!